15.1.15

Kawan

Hai kawan,
Sudah lama ku tak mendengar suaramu
ceritamu, tawamu, keluh kesahmu

Mungkin hal ini terkesan sepele
tapi dalam hatiku, jujur aku rindu
rindu dengan segala hal yang pernah terjadi
bahkan rindu ketika kita bertengkar

Rasa rindu yang begitu dalam
hingga membuat hatiku terasa sakit, perih
karena rindunya membuatku ingin meneteskan air mata setiap harinya
membuatku tak bisa merasakan sedikit kebahagiaan
karena kau tak bisa merasakannya
membuatku merasa bersalah jika aku melakukan sesuatu
karena kau tak bisa melakukannya

Kawan,
cepatlah kembali
jiwaku terasa hampa, sepi, tak bertuan
membuatku ingin hilang saja dari dunia ini
seraya ikut menemanimu dalam kehampaan
dan kesunyian yang kau rasakan

Kawan,
aku sungguh merindukanmu
tak kusangka hal ini terjadi begitu cepat
tak pernah kubayangkan sosok yang kuanggap kuat, 
bahkan selalu menyemangatiku dikala ku rapuh
ternyata bisa tumbang juga

Tapi wajar, 
kau bukan manusia super, kawan
ada waktunya kau perlu beristirahat 
dari segala penat, dari segala beban
yang selalu muncul di pikiranmu

Tapi, istirahatlah sebentar jangan terlalu lama 
dan melajulah lagi, kawan
melajulah demi cita-citamu
demi orang tersayangmu
dan demi aku yang merindukanmu.....

9.12.14

Mendung Kelabu

Ya dulu aku memang pernah mengatakan
bahwa hujan membawa ketenangan

Namun terkadang ketika sendiri
melihat gelapnya langit yang tertutup oleh
kumpulan awan kelabu 

Terasa sunyi, sunyi sekali
membuatmu memikirkan 
apa yang sudah kau lakukan 
dalam hidup

Apakah kau sudah cukup puas ?


5.4.14

Putih

Semua orang berkata hidup itu harus berwarna
Merah, kuning, hijau, biru, bahkan hitam
Tapi dibalik itu semua, ada satu
yang menjadi dasar dan awal dari semuanya
Putih, kertas yg putih, warna putih
disitulah awal kita melukiskan goresan tinta berwarna
yang menjadi perjalanan hidup kita

Dibalik semua lukisan yang penuh dan ramai dengan warna
pasti akan kita temukan satu celah atau satu titik kecil
yang belum terusap oleh warna-warna itu
ya, satu titik putih satu celah putih

dan disitulah kita sadar bahwa dibalik semua kehidupan
kita akan punya satu titik kecil
dimana kita kembali ke asal kita
diam, tenang, polos, dan mungkin terlupakan

yang utama bukanlah mengisi semua lukisan dengan warna
tak perlu pusing memikirkan apa yang harus dilukiskan
mungkin terkadang kita bisa membiarkannya sederhana
biarkan itu terisi dengan warna putih tanpa goresan apapun
karena kita perlu waktu untuk berhenti sejenak
dan menikmati apa yang terjadi di sekitar kita



17.2.14

PENAT

Memang kehidupan adalah sebuah berkah dari Tuhan yang diberikan kepada setiap makhluknya
Namun terkadang dalam menjalani kehidupan itu akan ada sebuah titik
Titik dimana kita merasa penat dengan segalanya, Ya segalanya.........
Penat dengan semua pemikiran orang-orang
Penat dengan pentingnya memikirkan masa depan
Penat dengan keramaian
Namun juga penat dengan kesendirian

Dalam hidup memang kita perlu berfikir
Setiap saat berfikir dan terus berfikir
Bagaimana kita akan menjalani hari demi hari
Tapi aku penat, benar-benar penat
Apakah salah jika aku hanya ingin diam, tenang, tanpa ada sedikitpun berfikir
Tak ada keraguan, tak ada kepastian
Hanya ada di suatu batas antara realita dan fata morgana
Tak ada yang namanya benar atau salah
Tak harus memilih
Seolah aku hanya ada dan kalian tak perlu meributkan keberadaanku

19.1.14

Don't You Love The Rain ?

Hujan terkadang bisa menyebalkan bagi beberapa orang,
tapi bagiku hujan adalah ketenangan.
Suasana mendung dan kelabu itu terasa begitu nyaman,
seakan-akan dunia terasa lebih sepi dan lebih hening dari biasanya.
Bukannya tidak senang dengan terangnya sinar matahari,
tapi terkadang sinar itu terlalu terang terlalu mencolok
hingga aku merasa bosan dengan panasnya dan sengatannya.
Tik tik tik.... derap hujan mulai turun satu persatu
yang lama kelamaan menjadi deras
seperti kumpulan bunyi perkusi dari marching band.
Entah kenapa bunyi itu bisa meredam berbagai penat yang ada di kepalaku.
Seolah-olah semua tangisan dan amarah bisa tertutupi oleh suara deras air hujan.
Sisi terbaik  hujan adalah ketika melihatnya dari kaca mobil menetes menyusuri kaca
sambil memandang ke arah jalan dengan pemandangan yang bergerak cepat
karena mobil yang terus berjalan.
Kemudian nyalakan lagu Today is No Sunday.
Inilah momen yang paling tepat untuk menikmati hujan.
Nikmatilah momen ini selagi perjalanan belum berakhir.
Karena di akhir perjalanan, kita mungkin akan merindukan momen ini.
Terkadang ingin sekali merasakan hidup seperti di perjalanan .
Terus saja memandang sekeliling tanpa peduli kapan kita sampai.
Melihat pemandangan sambil mendengar lagu favorit di telinga kita.
Sesuatu yang aku katakan sederhana tapi indah.
Seperti hujan.......

31.7.13

another breath taking photos // exploring the glacier in Chile


image via pinterest

Guess What, it's UNDERWATER

hi guys , finally my examination week is over. I feel super excited about holidaay , I just can't wait to meet my family. Ooh I miss them all sooo muuch. Please pray I could get good score for my test result. So, it's been like almost three weeks I guess in fasting month. I don't wanna lie but I feel this fasting month is pretty different especially cause I'm away from home and my dorm friends. This fasting month feels like my loneliest month ever. I rarely wake up every morning for sahur, crazy huh. Okay, but enough with that sad thing .A few days ago I went to Semarang to visit couple of my high school friends and it was very exciting. One of my friend is pretty expert in photography so we did a couple of photo shots in this gorgeous Chinese temple Sam Poo Kong and I will post the photos later. I just wanna post this awesome photo taken by Mark Tipple called Underwater Project. Enjooy......

image via pinterest

25.5.13

sleepy - exam week


hello guys, I just wanna show you my sleepy face during this exam week
Wish me tooons of luck for the test!!

3.5.13

jamaican theme invitation card



My friends and I have this idea to make a graduation party for our seniors who will be graduated and soon will becoming doctor. Well, I decided to volunteer myself as the invitation card designer.Cause my creative brain is on her mood, so tonight I decided to make the card. Sorry if it's not good cause it's been pretty while since my last time using photoshop.  Actually we haven't really decided what the theme of party will be, but I had this imagination of jamaican beach party where all t the boys will wear hawaian shirt and the girls will wear a cute beach dress ( sorry if it's waay too far from the event). I think it would be great if we hold the party in a seafood restaurant that has beach atmosphere. Maybe later I will looking for a restaurant like this in Jogja, hope it won't be that hard to find the perfect spot. Any recommendation?

2.5.13

red - iron man - pigtails hairstyle

Finally I got to watch Iron Man 3 and it was soo damn cool. 
I never thought that I could stand watching sci fi heroes movie for more than one hour but 
actually it turned out super awesoome. Wearing my super comfy red stripe sweater a
nd just taking some silly picture before I went to the movies with this pigtails hairstyle. 
I think it's a cute hairstyle to try.
Night peeps......


red and black stripe sweater by Giordano

stay healthy

Hey guys, this time I have new muse of mastering the art of being vegan. So, since a couple of weeks  I have been trying to stay healthy by exercising and eating healthy food and suddenly something went on my mind why not trying to be a vegan? I think it's a great idea and also a tough decision, cause you know how hard to be a vegan in Indonesia right? the smell of roasted meat hahaha. Anyway I had tried it, I even make my own salad and I realize how hard to get a good quality of vegetables and fruits in Jogjakarta? oohh what a vegan's dilemma. I also have my new interest for trying those vegan's recipe, so I search and look in the internet ,but till now I haven't actually tried anything and it just make my mouth watering to see those yummy dishes.

A couple of days before I bought a cute neon blazer with white daisy crochet on it, it has very vintage lookin and it has becoming my favourite items these days. Ooh I just wish I could post it here but I've been pretty busy with college stuff and have lack of ideas and energy to write. I almost forget, last Sunday my  faculty held this concert called Jazz Night and guess what it turned out supeeerr awesooome. I didn't expect that those old doctor could perform that great and super genious in singing. The seniors and the younger doctors were also very brainiac in music. It's really good to see how doctors could show that they're not only genious in academic but also in music. 


6.4.13

bunny sweater // 21.42 // boredom


+ bunny sweater from Topshop
+ white short

pretty bored even though I almost reach my exam day,so decided to play with my comfy white bunny sweater, super booored totally one of my worst night and my friendless night

25.3.13

emerald - acrylic - skull


acrylic emerald skull ring from greedysassy

c e m e t i a r t h o u s e

Last Saturday, my best buddy and I finally went to Cemeti Art House. After a long long time craving to visit this place , I finally did it. I can't say how grateful I am to have a buddy such as Harun. Okay he is my highschool buddy and has this quite adventurous and cheerful personality. He is really excited to visit many places and I am glad that I am the part of it. 

First of all, we got lost when we search this place cause the place was soo beyond expected. The frontyard was covered with many plants and big trees. I mean who can really guess that it's actually an art house.The place is not really big, it's very small actually. But they have quite many paintings and few pieces of sculpture and they also sell some of the paintings. I even had a chance to ask the museum keeper ( I don't know how to say it) one of the paintings which I like the most, and it worth ten million rupiah. Wow, what an amazing price. I totally wish can buy that painting someday in the future.

I actually felt little disappointed cause they didn't hold the exhibition that I wish to see but at least I already had a chance to visit this place. I love the pink wall they have (you can see in my picture). The color is such a mood booster. I hope I can paint one of the room in my house with this color. Well, if you really curious to visit this place,it is located in D.I.Panjaitan Street Number 40 and if you get lost don't be ashame to ask the people. One last word, I also wanna say many many thanks to my friend Rara for letting me borrow his awesome SLR. See yaa





 + black shirt from mom

+ military vest from Zara

+ jeans from Zara

+ black skinny belt from mom

+ black shiny loafer from loveliness

+ black handbag from longchamp

22.3.13

nerd // monochrome

  Actually my eyes are okay but I'm wearing glasses cause 
I wanna try this nerdy look or just trying to look smarter.
So, How do you think?



+ Portofino Sunglasses by Prism
+ Tokyo Mirror Sunglasses by Prism Mer
+ Anson Color Block Pants by Tibi
+ Croc-Embossed Pelican Satchel by Alexander Wang
+ Mixed-Media North South Tote by Giorgio Armani
+ Merci Leather Moto Jacket by Acne
+ Lace-Trimmed Silk Blouse by Chloe
+ Shane Heel by Tibi
+ Wing Earrings by Noor Fares
+ Valencia Cuff Bracelet by Maiyet

20.3.13

dip it dye

I'm totally crazy about dip dye or I prefer to say it ombre. This color is like to die for, isn't it?
I love to see hair with ombree especially if the're blonde, it just look so perfect. 
Sometime I wish if I could try that thing but I bet it won't look good on me hehe.
I wanna buy everything with ombre color please, maybe ombre sweater or anything. 
Let's put it in my wishlist.